Where Wolf

I took a knife to my face when I saw yours. 

All the black traced veins I pulled

from your throat as I bloated

my goaded ego and toted small death breaths

with me just in case you ran out of grenades. 

I pulled long pined treacheries and projected 

these wretcheries onto your beautiful gambit of flowers. 

I showered blood and gore from scores 

of incandescent descents into Hell's happy place. 

Your face graces my open throated grave

and you gave and give everything I need

but my decade bleed pleads for its fill

and my will breaks change and can't fit the bill. 

I need light to shine bright and forthright 

from these blighted fighting fists that persist 

in your demolition. 

I can't hold you tight at arms length

and my strength burns against me now. 

clench my grip and run with me through fields of gray 

and stay until our breaths can merge 

and conquer this brittle broken battlefield I've fed. 

Between you and me and Daddy we can defeat my giants. 

Though the pliant promises of yesterday again will not fill

my ever diminishing return

return with me to our happy days

now colored in forays of the scared body I bare

but let us care enough to stand, hand in hand in hand

and band together with glorious tether to hold my werewolf 

back again. 

I've bled you in your sleep and I weep black bile 

when I see my scars transposed onto your skin

and thin your blood for fear of what I've made you. 

Never constrained to beef my belief is what Daddy says, 

and He says we can survive. 

Please hold my gasps against me until we vent thee 

to new promises held in iron grips

that won't slip back into the deadly coma. 

Your aroma holds my hope

and a life long cope will take us into new

renewed bonds that I broke long ago. 

I didn't know. 

I didn't stop when I did. 

I didn't want but I did. 

Now I want you but I don't. 

I can't blame you if you won't. 

Just know

that every blow

bled me too. 

Let's lock forearms but not lips.

Let's hold away from sway hips

and bathe in waterfall graces

until we see my face is clean again;

until Daddy brings me home.